terrible me

today i didn't go to class meeting. how terrible am i!i just keep fooling around and around like walking death.
trying to change this fucking situation all the time, but fail again and again.

what i did today...nothing but playing PSP, checking someone's blog, chatting with friends, fooling with facebook..balhabala...terrible me

positive and negative

recently i am reading "feel the fear and do it anyway" which is teaching you how to change your negative thinking into positive.

i feel so depressed that my... cannot come to see me this weekend because of running out of money.<---negative
maybe i should study harder and earn some money....then i will have more choices in my life.<---is it positive thinking which can convince me?

forget it....i don't care about these shits.......
nobody cares...